A blog about the reality of God's presence, love and involvement in everyday occurrences. This is a record of my journey towards discovery. I often share thoughts on femininity, scripture, motherhood, creativity and ministry.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010


I cannot believe it has been so long since I've written about my beautiful boys....

Jude is 17 months old! He is so baby-ish in ways Roman never was. He enjoys being taken care of. He wants me to spend my time holding and kissing on him! Oh - he always makes me feel better when I am down. Him and Roman started playing a little game where they would say "my momma" and pretend fight over me. Well, Jude, in the most loving way, does it now just to show love. He routinely walks up to me, wrapping himself around my legs, and says "my momma." I think he knows it melts my heart. He reaches for me with those little open hands, moving them open and closed, to show that he wants me. He would rather sit next to me and talk than anything else. Roman will be fighting some imaginary superhero right in front of us and Jude just wants to look into my eyes like it is only the two of us there. He looks at me sometimes, like it is an inside joke, when things occur around us. It is like he knows that I know what he is thinking. All I have to do it look at him and laugh and he is rolling in laughter. Today, in the park, he found a fuzzy flower and spent 5 whole minutes examining it. He puts so much effort into his thoughts. I've said that since he was just a few months old. He always thinks before he acts. He is NOT persuaded to do anything he doesn't want to do. This child knows what he wants when he wants it. He is so mild mannered until you cross what he wants. Things that don't matter, he easily lets slide. Sometimes its just not worth his energy. But, if it matters to him, YOU WILL know it! He is incredibly smart. One day he decided he wanted to use a fork. So, he asked for one, then proceeded to use it correctly, eating his entire meal with the fork. REally - it should take months to become proficient at such a task:) He loves his pictures of family in his room. He request it down quite often so he can point at everyone he recognizes. I'm thinking one day he will just decide to be potty trained. He tells me everytime he has a dirty diaper and when he feels like it he tells me he wants to use the potty! He is starting to get mad when I put diapers on him so it might not be long. He found the drawer I keep his pacifiers in. So, he sneaks away quite often and happily comes out of his room with one everytime he thinks about it.

Roman and I sat down to start his Kindergarden material this week. I'm convinced this boy never forgets a thing once he learns it the first time. His memory is so incredibly sharp. He will remember the details of how he learned anything from over a year ago. He loves our little homeschool. He asks me to have school all the time. He has so much patience. This week he sat at the table for over an hour calmly writing and learning. I was really impressed with how much he had matured over the summer. Roman is a very sensitive child. We have to be so careful about what we say around him. He gets very concerned about others and even animals. He wants so much to understand everything. He needs a complete description of everything that happens. He will overhear David and I talking about something and bring it up later, after having spent the whole day thinking about it. He does not like for people to be hurt or upset. He is especially have a difficult time with family being far away right now. He just can't understand why other people have thier family close and he doesn't. It is a very sad reality that he is uncovering. This boy NEVER stops going. He is full of energy and life. He sometimes fits in better with children a little older than himself. He totally in to video games like crazy right now. He is wonderful at them. I would have never of dreamed a 4 year old could play like he does! He loves being busy and on the go but always wants to come home at night and cuddled up on the couch to watch a movie.

These two boys are going to be very close. They are already great pals. Roman says they are "best friends." I have a feeling this friendship is a bond that will go into adulthood. They fight and scream but at the end of the day, they are bubbies and that makes me happy!