A blog about the reality of God's presence, love and involvement in everyday occurrences. This is a record of my journey towards discovery. I often share thoughts on femininity, scripture, motherhood, creativity and ministry.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Provision


EASTER. God's provision, mercy and love are remarkable.

Yesterday was a very discouraging day. Mainly because of myself. I don't like confrontation. I don't handle it well. Some people can let things roll of their backs, I cannot. Some people look for trouble. I run from it. Some people search for most hurtful words they can find. Their words dart at you like a double edged sword. Thank you Jesus for your shield of protection. His love and mercy cover me, not letting meaningless slander penetrate the surface. There is no other God like mine! He is the one the supplies all my needs and pours His love over me.

Psalm 120:6-7 "My soul has dwelt too long with the one who hates peace. I am for peace. But when I speak, they are for war."

Once again, I am thankful. My life is full of greatness, given by God alone. Today, on such a special day of fulfillment through the resurrection, I am reminded of His perspective. It's hard at times, to lift your eyes above discouragement. But, when you finally do, it's amazing. It's like climbing and climbing the tallest mountain, then finally reaching the top to see things your never knew existed. An entirely new and amazing horizon. When you get there, the possibilities are endless. All your fears melt away. Then, you realize your worries, cares & concerns can be lifted and handed over to the one who carries it all. His love is indescribable and in His presence nothing else matters.

My children and my husband are my greatest blessings. My sweet Jude turned 2 in March. I love the newfound conversations I am having with him. I'm really getting to know him on different level as his personality comes alive through communication. The responses I get from him are sometimes unexpected because he is so incredibly different than Roman. His humor is entertaining. He has been playing little tricks on me and telling jokes. He is very observant and cautious. But, one thing hasn't changed. His LOVES his mommy! Anytime he comes close with that pacifier and blanket saying"but mommy, hold me" its irresistible! Roman will be starting Kindergarden at home in the fall while Jude will be starting pre-school one day a week. Roman will take one day of tutorials a week at a local academy then we will study the rest at home every day. He will get to participate in field trips and activities through Aaron's Academy. Roman will also be playing T-ball this summer and starting a musical instrument lesson in the fall! He is so incredibly smart and I am so proud of him! He is writing and reading already and eager to start school! Roman & Jude are best friends! They are so close and play so well together. I am so thankful they are the ages they are and that they get to grow up together! They are now sharing a room and I never knew this could be so great! They LOVE being together at night. Going to bed and waking up in the same room makes life an adventure for them! They plan and scheme. I love it. Sometimes when they wake up early together, one will whisper over to other to come jump in bed! Then, they lay still and whisper until 7 (which is when they are allowed to get out of bed.) Being together has calmed fears and strengthened the brotherhood between them!

I am also thankful for the 3rd little one growing inside of me! I am 12 weeks pregnant. It truly does not seem real. I'm hoping in the next few weeks we will find out if it is a boy or girl! Since I'm having ultrasounds every 2 weeks we will hopefully get to find out early! How blessed am I to have the honor of a 3rd child! I've known since Jude's birth, there was a 3rd that belonged to our family. God eased my concerns and confirmed the timing. Before we even realized what was happening, I was pregnant! Dear baby growing inside my tummy, I love you more than words can say and I am honored to be your mother! We can't wait to bring you into our family!

David is graduating from seminary in May! I am so proud of him for all the hard work that he has invested in this over the past year. Seminary was something we felt God leading us towards. Then, within a few days, God provided the entire tuition. This is truly amazing! Now, as the end is approaching I am thankful for God's provision over the last year and also anticipation His future for us!

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